Wednesday, December 29, 2004
My doggies
Eye candy for my friend The Paradox.

my tresmaryoseps!
this is lloyd.
this is lloyd (again)
isn't he such a sweetie?

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posted by Rax @ 10:44
 
Monday, December 27, 2004
The world spins. I spin with it.
Law school has changed my perspective a lot. 2nd year and still standing... but only on the surface. I'm beginning to have doubts. A lot of expectations have been ruined after reading our good old Supreme Court decisions. It's like an innocent child learning that the worlds isn't as pretty as he thought. Law and Justice were supposed to be synonymous. I guess I really was a dreamer.

The evil are guilty, and create Law. The good are innocent, and create Justice.
Terry Pratchett

Our professors encourage us to change the system. To fight it even. I'm just feeling a little small. My uncle had decided to lecture me on the "profession." "We lawyers end up as crooks," he says. "At least the famous ones do..." Sigh. I refuse to believe it. Belief is a strong thing. It can change one's life so one must always be careful in choosing what they wish to believe in. (Faith comes under this category- but that's another entry...)

"Wizard's First Rule: People are stupid; given proper motivation, almost anyone will believe almost anyting. Because people are stupid, they will believe a lie because they want to believe it's true. People's heads are full of knowledge, facts, and beliefs, and most of it is false, yet they think it all true. People are stupid; they can only rarely tell the difference between a lie and the truth, and yet they are confident they can, and so are all the easier to fool"
Zeddicus Zu'l Zorander, Wizards First Rule

True, the public does not hold lawyers in high esteem. There must be a basis somewhere. But as an afterthought, we aren't all alike. There must be some honor left in this world. There I go dreaming again... But I will TRY. I am not afraid. I am not afraid.


Fear rules those weak enough to accept it.
Greven il-Vec, Magic: The Gathering


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posted by Rax @ 10:16
 
Death to Religion
My lola passed away last dec 17. For the first time in 4 years I actually attended mass, prayed the rosary and washed hands in holy water. My status as a cynic and atheist has taken quite a turn, i don't know if for the better. No, I have not embraced religion back in my arms but I have considered the possibility of a god's existence. BUT if it be the Christian god that most worship then I have not made peace with him...yet. He can sit in his high and mighty throne and contemplate on his lost child while I walk away.

As for the prayers and the mass, i have reaffirmed my beliefs: that death of a loved one brings a huge need for repetitive mantras called prayers. It is that sorrowful chanting of pleas to a god which brings a lot of comfort. It has helped eased my grief. Call me a heretic or blasphemer, I don't care. I do what it takes to live. After all that's all what religion is to me:


To make an absence less than total.

I'm sorry lola. I cannot follow you...

This is MY life.

"If god dosent exist then this life....every second of it...is all we have"
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posted by Rax @ 09:28
 

knowing but not intervening...
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